I AM SINGLE...

Fact:  I am Single...

This fact became a reality in July of 2015.  I never thought I would ever be a single mom and like so many others I am not prepared for this whole single mom thing.  I think as moms we are hard on ourselves already.  The prospect of being on my own and going from a stay at home mom to a working mom hurts...

Sometimes I feel lost on this new adventure I got thrown on.  I didn't want this.  I didn't want to be alone.  I didn't want to work and leave my kids in the care of other people.  I NEVER wanted to raise my kids mostly on my own.  I wanted them to grow up in a better home than I did.  I didn't want them to be "the product of divorce".  It is a hard way to grow up.  Going from this house to that.   Hearing that the other parent isn't a great one or has flaws...

I have vowed never to tell my kids anything bad about their father.  He really is a great dad.  I just wish he had wanted to stay with me and work out the husband part.  The vows we took out when we got married meant something to me and I thought they did to him as well.

Now I get to start the whole dating scene over again....

I wasn't very good at it in the first place.  I met my ex on a website when internet dating was brand new.  I flew to a new state by myself to meet him in person.  I knew (or thought I did) that he was the man I would be with forever.  We were married for 12 years and starting over doesn't seem that appealing to me.

I am not going to rush into anything though because a man doesn't need to define my happiness.  So this is a blog to put out my frustrations and maybe help some of you who may be going through the same situation. 

So here I go on my new adventure....